okay. please just heck what i've just said.
it's already the last day of the month and i'm very sure that july and the months ahead would be splendid

an unfinished life is a pretty good movie. it brought me profound grief.
i'm not sure if it's the movie per se or i'm just making the heck out of the fact that
the five protagonists (even the bear) found their place and makes wonder why my sentences are so chopped up.
i cant seem to put links between my own fractions of life.


i cant afford to let you weigh me down, putting up those brave fronts and getting hurt over and over again although you had no intention to. i just wonder why most of your words stings me.

not the entire life. it's just the recent. the entire 6 months i'm through. and hell i didnt get any better.



sometimes i do tend to leave happy things aside and allow myself to rant. and for that i'm doing justice to myself.

ugh. i just got off the edge of my parents' bed where i have dangled for half an hour, replying all the msges (one from the client as well). and i still have 15 more minutes to kill before i can get ready to go for lunch with my colleagues.

strange?


not strange.
i woke up at 9 today. too late to work, too awake to sleep in. so thats half day gone.



why cant we talk just because we miss each other. why cant you call just because. why do we have to look for reasons and excuses all the time before we can kick off a conversation. why cant we be irrational. why cant we just say hi. why dont we have the courage. why is it always so near yet so far.

ass-ed comfortably (or uncomfortably) in the space capsules.

i abhor the distance and the barriers of air. yet nothing happened.

it's unintentional i marked everything yours, mine or ours. and the line that i didnt draw in between us.

you are always there
and not there

now, ignore those pink pills and swallow your secrets.

i've been sweeping the floor for you and it never gets cleaner. now i dont want to sweep floor for you anymore because i've 10 waiting to sweep my floor for me. and they want to feed me watermelons as well. and lots and lots sugar.

know you probably think that that doesnt make sense.
sometimes i want to be a queen too.

yesterday was shop-till-you-drop day.

today is sentosa-with-colleagues day. oh well, at 4pm, bingquan, yuk and i was still queue-ing for free candy floss at vivo city.

S5 IS is coming out/out already. they've skipped the number four. not very exciting anyway.


i'm tired and hungry again. here're some photos from dinner.

first, i dont know why i've received a letter from the world children's fund hong kong ltd, along with a hopelessly cute keychain and two photos of hungry children from sudan.

second, they are asking for donations of SG$65/130/195/1,085. can i ask, why those numbers?

third, it must be made either by cheque, or credit card (discount rate waived if AMEX card is used - pls tell me what the hell is discount rate and why only that particular card?). and so it seems that they've assumed that i have a card, or they knew i had a card.

forth, i can choose to cease them from using my data for direct mailing or for telemarketing purposes by ticking the box(es) accordingly. you mean they actually have my numbers to call? and call all the way from hongkong?


alright, i need to make this clear. i really really would like to help. you should have seen the photos that i'm staring at right now. i should have scanned them in so you guys could see but i'm too lazy to move my bums to get the simple job done.

thats not the point.

after getting emotional from the photos and all, the questions start popping.


doubt 1. HOW did they get my contacts. why didnt my parents receive the letter? did YOU?
doubt 2. would my donations reach those children? something tells me that the answer is no. this campaign has been on going and so many people had donated years after years, still no signs of better-ness? then where did the money go? i dont think the kids there eat elephants.
so one of the possible reasons i could think of is the africans are rabbits.



rabbits? you dont get it?

you should have seen how rabbits breed.



but me being me, i guess i would still
donate




i just dont understand how much i avoid doing surveys, filling up forms and etc i still get so much related mails. someone must have been faking me.

summer makes you want to run in bikinis

anyway this is goldcoast, still. (yes, because i havent been to new places) but anyway, i was on a private jet quite far off the shore and ta-da what a bad composition. hah.

you know what you can do when you're bored? first you come to my page and wonder why the hell yuan's not drawing 小顺/not rambling/not posting enough photos anymore, and then you can drop by handmadelove and look at my dear dawny's new art pieces. i love her new collection! if thats still not enough, you can go here and visit yaohui's galleries.

happy weekends!

the good news came and read, FASS is offering second majors to business undergraduates who have a min cap of 3.5 and pass in a countable number of MCs in that particular course applied for.

so you know what that means?! it's fu-ahem-cking good news!
i thought my dream's over and now it looks like hey baby it's nnoooooooot oooover yeeett! i want it so badly and i am going to work extra ultra super duper hard for it and i know i will get it. just wait for my good news after the 3rd sem.



i just dont know what to expect. i would never tell you who you are again. you do it.

picture by lim yaohui

































i'm slightly at my low point this night. because i did indian dance just now and i thought i didnt look indian enough.

such pity am seeking thrill in work so i could bring myself some pathetic amount of commission. but at least it keeps me in my job, and an extra $8 for the day.

i've this romantic worm in me wiggling. sigh, and so i day-dream A LOT. thank you fullstop

chris decided it's best we exchange violins in july. i'm a bit worried because the bow alone costs hundreds (so you can speculate how much the violin is). i dont know why the heck he dare to entrust me with his baby for 8 months. i'll probably break it, like how i whacked my own fiddle.

am an empty bottle trying to fill myself full.

*cuckles

before i go into extinction, i better start going out more. more as in, go on dates with my camera, before it becomes extinct as well. i havent been taking photos lately and i cant stand seeing other people with prettier pictures.

thats it. i'm going holiday. and i'll definitely win hands down.

now the only problem is, i cant go anywhere without a passport.







to be or not to be a singaporean. thats the question. i just hate the pink ic. like, of all colors, why pink?! but the passport adds value. so i'm saying a 90% yes. i think i can still handle the pink. i'll try not to look at it everyday.

it's already friday. fast, isnt it. and mr sore throat is lurking around again.

i'm supposed to be uploading some photos (which i aint exactly keen to) so that people like Eugene can rip them off.

reasons:
1. lazy
2. lazy
3. lazy
4. too particular about picture quality. phone cameras are just NOT THERE.





























and hopefully he's happy now. well, i'm not. haha.

bananas in pajamas!
oh. they're supposed to be yellow in colour. my bad.
you see, thats the problem with english. bananas are bananas regardless of the color. but in chinese, yellow ones are called 香蕉 and the green ones are 芭蕉。and there's one whole list to add on.

thanks everybody for the concern and everything. i'm much better today already apart from the feverish morning.

the crazy part timers want to steal my fiddle and burn it. -.-"

after missing 6 violin lessons, i FINALLY had one class today. and it was nice catching up with chris. he so nice lor, want to loan me his violin just because he thinks that his violin is a better size for me (slightly smaller than mine). exam's in 8 months time.

sigh, today's fur's last day at work.

maybe it's nothing. but your concern just made my day. :)

i like this line. Love is really a deep friendship - simple as that

if only they were m&ms or skittles. i cant even pick up a peanut (not like i ever adore them). so i didnt go work today.

so far,
i've turned down a breakfast date, a movie date, a lunch date and a shopping date. like as if AS IF i love staying home so much that i had to stay home for 3 consecutive days.

i just swallowed both pills and the instant drowsiness strikes me.
eeee. i cant stand being smelly in my soiled undergarments. right, i'm going to bathe right now before i faint (fall asleep) in my showers.

would you stretch out your arms and say, 'fall into me.'

"where had you gone to?"

it takes a healthy person awhile to register how terrible terrible falling ill feels. and, having no one there to pamper. if someone gives me a call and makes way to my place with take-away porridge (will do), i'll probably marry him.

i have a bad throat right now. it has to be the 100 calls i made per day and the chocolate truffles van gave me thats so irresistable, that i finished them in a day minus-ing a couple few offered to fur and jerry.

alrights, i'm not patient enough to sit around and wait for my prince to buy me a watch. this is it. a new release from baby-g.
so beauteous.
so i bought it. :)

nevermind, you can still get me a wallet. but no prince = no wallet. :(

this is just so pretty. though i would say it's one of my badly taken pictures.
if you saw the same sky i saw tonight, maybe you would agree with me that it's just as pretty as well.

i'm so tired, can. borrowed taxi home to watch but i would be leaving that to saturday.


*raises wine glass in air
cheers to the first 10 bucks commission i made. thats 70 bucks earned for today.

*yawn
nights

i just want to put a bug up. lala

lala

lalala?

someone buy me a nice watch can? for whatever occasion.

*smacks forehead.
this is so ugly, and so explicit.
if you cant figure out what that is, you ought to bang the walls.

it's a moving castle! cant you see?

hahaha

i'm watching howl's moving castle right now, but i'm only 40 seconds into it and i've decided that i'm too tired to finish the show.

my brain is 20 years old today! and no violin AGAIN.

weekend just whizzed past like that. *draws tornado

i worked out too much on my butt and the thighs just now. and the arms and the abs as well. i didnt put on excess weight in 2 months afterall.
i borrowed the corpse's bride back from the dvd library as well. you see, fitnessfirst is such a nice place i'll go there everyday. they serve my favourite hot green tea even!

my DS now has tonnes of games. and brain age says my brain is 28 years of age on my first assessment. *laughs at those with 20 year-old bodies with 40+ year-old brains. ahem.
and my brain weighs 854g at the age academy. the stupid mouthless slug thing says, "wow huge brains. i'm impressed!". now, it's 22 years old and weighs 957g.






























oh and so i really drew a dumb looking tornado -.-"

alrights, this is the probably the only part that's going to make sense：
i'm going to volunteer at somewhere near Parkmall to tutor some hearing impaired children. so if you're interested as well, let me know so i can arrange my friend to bring all of us down to take a look at the place.

小顺也加入了血拼一族所以最近比较忙。

today, i made 105 calls.
today, i've decided to get EOS 350D.
today, i treated my buddies to $22.20 desserts. 20.20 to be exact; jia yinn forked out the 2 bucks.
today, i enjoyed today. and the connection.

why were you so strange?