i know some of you are going to disapprove my behavior. am flustered.





promise not to judge me?







*breathe*i spent over $300 on shoes today.


DONT

JUDGE

ME.



look, i gave you advice warning.
=C


i've been such a good girl. i did my chores, exercised, did ballet and cut the strings. i even tried saving up.

i was happy when i bought them. but i'm not now. evil made me question myself.

there are 2 more pairs on their way.















i am aware of my built-up emotional outbursts.

whatever it is, i choose to believe that i bought them for reasons. one shot investment, maybe. what you need to know is that i dont usually throw my notes around anyhow. i think.

there're no reasons not to love them, because they are all pretty.

you can definitely choose not to believe me. it's alright. but think about how you've already promised not to judge.

the only slight disappointment i have is that i didnt manage to get my islanders, so i had to make do with off road. (need them badly since i travel so much)


i seriously dont know. if you have a different take on this, let me know.
*seek comfort in violin.

because cauliflowers are pretty
because love is for those with extras to give


you deserve more than feeling like an average

Pisco Bandito is a genius. but if you really think about it, M.C. Escher is the real genius. Technology only made bandito better. Photoshop, that is.

i know when i'm here typing something, it gives me the least reason to complain about how busy i am. freak. got to run again. bite my strings!

it doesnt really matter if you know dawn personally or you dont. she's such a born-to-be children illustrator that you just have to be there for her graduation show. i'm making a trip down on fri, right after my sch at 2, so if you wish to be amazed, then tag along!

she is materializing a dream i didnt dare dream.

class blog has been revamped. *click* i could have given it a little bit more character of its own but sorry, i self-imposed. churn out something better in may or something, i promise.

my mind is a blank canvas. someone buy me a new battery charger please? without my batteries, i cant shoot. i cant shoot, half of me is gone. damn, i've to drag half of me to register for exams later. *whistle the scherzo tune. i'm so sick of it too.

“任何的情感，只要透过照片的观察，是最骗不了人的。”
i'd wish that line originated from me.

thats it. term break is over. i've exactly 10 days to breeze through my list.

i kept telling myself that life goes on..

sorry i've been really busy running between places; my schedules are unexpectedly packed and i know you guys are here for this.



click on photos to enlarge and if you want any particular one, nudge me and i'll deliver the picture to your email.

great company, good food. though we didnt get to go to the airport in the morning, some of us still had a good time yum chaing, catching dream girls before heading down for the birthday gathering at fur's place.

happy birthday nel.

quite a tonne happened too the day before and the day after. i know i cant get the sequence right.

before: i caught half nelson, queued for doughnuts with fur, sat in for mahjong cos they always 三缺一。

after: i was called down to chengyang's place for mee sua. ha. good grief. you should try his cooking. and i shall leave my sentence as that.
then was catching up at settlers with the ex.20, which turned out surpringsly well (at least there were common topics to talk about, you get the drift)

i just came back from ballet.



those are the torturous ballet gears.

i'm all too tired to elaborate. i still have plenty of things to do. so, just forgive me.

personally i dont know how cool it is to wear shoes with your own face on it. i'm guessing it's bold, narcissistic, bold, narcissistic.

no prize for guessing who this is (not that i'm any near 'excellent' at doing portraits) but from the looks of it, i'm not completely out of touch with paints.


so here it is; not too plain i hope.






a bit of advertising wont harm so here goes: if anyone interested in customizing your shoes, be it for your own wear or as gifts to loved ones, contact me directly at yyaaung@gmail.com for quotes.

yes. yawn. good day. i lost the things i want to say.

sometimes i'd wish to be wild too. but i've decided to stick to my usual school, violin, er hu, ballet routine. maybe that sounds interesting to some.

when you had too much pepper and salt, a change of honey and sugar is good.

turn the negative into a positive picture. i'll live by that till i pick myself up. cheers.

blue funk; i did a slow burn. a really slow one.
pardon me for saying i'm losing my religion. i want to be honest about what i'm going through.
this might be a big one coming but i'm looking forward to the growth i get at the end of it. i'll find my way to the peak.
dont worry bout me.

quite an accomplishment.

you see, on the first day of lunar new year, i'm bumming around the house squishing mosquitoes and flies.

alright, hold it before you take pity on me. i had a bottle of irish bailey yesterday and countdown was smashing, and i got my $20 ang pow. ha, think about the years i got nothing at all.

happy birthday shaun.

those with weak family ties and/or who are desperate to date me out, here's the bit of good news so listen up! i'm ITT-ing you.

i've free passes to the zoo for 4 person (daily), including myself, all the way till wednesday. additional heads would be given 10 bucks discount each (quite a kill still) so if you belong to any of the stated groups above, please contact me directly to make a booking! i'm such a zookeeper seriously that i'm excited bout making multiple trips in 2 days.

while stocks last.

bahh. i'm plateauing, and sure it's not the best feeling to get. throw me on stage; tie me to a bungee; abandon me somewhere; discomfort is what i need. challenge me, something shorterm.

i'm a smart woman with a mash of brains! do i need someone to appreciate that?

Happy Chinese New Year. May you have lots of new shoes to wear this year.

can i tear down my blog?

this is how i've progressed.

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:'(
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:D <------- the current me!

世界真的那么大，我好想把你吃掉！
aww. barcelona looks so amazing. i must give La Tomatina a shot before i grow out of the whole tomato fight idea. and now i'm drooling over Gaudi's works.

erm, i need to get my leotards soon and....

look, missing a L? intended pun, or a genuine mistake?

so, this is how an australia visa looks like. not very nice i reckon. it doesnt even have my face on it.

i paid (okay, my parents paid, i didnt) $90, + a lot of trouble, for just two weeks of stay. and for that reason, my mom's raising the whole citizenship issue all over.
%$@# she doesnt know when to stop, seriously. turning legal is a nightmare, or at least for me. i've got more than enough immediate issues to deal with come 21, and my mom has to keep me on my toes all the time.

i'm leaving on a jet plane. on the 8th for sdyney and i would be staying there for a few days before hopping to gold coast and melbourne and bla bla. the east side at large. my adventures' beginning.

happy valentines!

though it's unnecessary, i'm eyeing on a new case.

i pulled myself out of bed not because i was looking forward to school. imagine a sick me, suffering from severe-tuesday-blues, giving a patronizing chuckle at the cab uncle's you-know-what-n-u-s-stands-for-joke. and now i cant remember what the joke was about. no use studying?, or something along that line. i wasnt in the mood for little talks so i pretended that i was listening, inserting uhs and yahs here and there, even though they dont seem to fit into the "conversation". thats' very rude i know, but oh well..

barely 30 mins into the 2nd lullaby, drowsiness' already won me over. i slept and then sneaked out during the break to request for the freaking letter--the only reason why i was in school for. all i can remember thereafter was me dragging my feet home, all wrapped up, in the supposedly-scorching-sun.

i nearly burnt my scallops. am i even making sense? my brain's not mine.

got to leave in another half. sigh. can i dont go?

i'll let the visuals do the talking! and for the rest of it, read up the previous post.

fever, headache and a leaking nose. happy 20th to me.

thank you my balls for the blueberry home-made cake, blanket-constructed tent and dead-chicken-and-pork lunch! sorry about the whole 15 minutes of knocking on my door with party hats and 5 bags of groceries. it must've been sucky. but thank you two so so much!

and to the rest of you out there, thanks for the blessings. thank you guys for remembering and taking time off to be there to make the day special. even my parents are too busy.

honestly i feel horrible. my body's down, work is piling up and i've my own emotions to handle. the australian embassy's giving my parents big headache and now i've to get a letter from nus to prove that i'm actually a student there. excuse me, then whats the use of having a student card. just give me my visa.

girl, i'm waiting for today's visuals! :)

输了你，赢了世界又如何。

in midst of my downs, God always bestow me with lots more other opportunities. and when they come, i'm always not in a right state of mind to grasp them.

how did i form that fixation? you idiot.

again, another THANKS goes to many many people. for dinner, for the presents, for the second cake, for everything else. i forgot to take photos. (okays, no. my battery-charger's gone hay-wire) but with the courtesy of fur, we still have some visuals tonight.





for 4 years, we have our birthdays celebrated together. belated for him, in advance for me.

happy birthday jia yi and siew khoon!

here are my buds!

i think it's really such a cute idea to bring someone to the botanic gardens, really.

laughs at van's "shit! she's here!" and laughs at yuk's reaction to it, and laughs even harder at yuk's "maria, go toilet with me.". and not forgetting someone asking me to sing my own birthday song! and all the struggles with a lighter.

i had pratas, crabs, and then 3/8 of this cake.





we bummed into 3, or is it 4? couples today and we had to fight for our turn to take a shot like that at the water falls. perhaps a few years down the road, we would be sweating out for our own bridal shots already.



okays, and some random shots.







thank you guys so much for all the effort! i really enjoyed my day though the actual day's still 3 moons away. MANY THANKS.

woosh! i'm feeling so much better already! ok, now i think i want to take back my claims on rehearsing through traumas. it worked and it works.

um, i've a presentation later. the everyweek-routine's no biggies already. haha instead i'm more concerned with where yuk and van's bringing me to.

happy birthday jia yinn!

too much trauma a day is hurting my old bones. i need lots of fresh air and breathing space, and i would appreciate if i grant myself the peace i had not too long back. i'm just wondering if you've ever been through mental-trauma rehearsals before. no? then discard the idea, cos it doesnt work. the real thing still swallows you like a tsunami. and here i am half drowning. sorry friends, especially to those i said bye too fast to tonight. i need this night alone, to do whatever healing i need. it takes a lot to recondition my stirred serenity, but i'm not saying it's impossible. if japan can pull itself out from rubble, why cant i.

thats it for me. i wont take another chance. i'm falling in love with the right things.

i'm now 50 bucks richer. but DONT even think about stretching the dollars this weekend, seriously.

ballet for me?
rotfl.
no?
not a good idea?

then maybe i will surprise you!
*chants end feb*
man! i'm excited.

stop laughing.

oh yes, thanks for all the little things that you guys have been doing. :)

on a self-portrait tuesday.

looks like i'd been alone for the next two days. parents overseas again. they come and go, as usual. hello empty apartment.

i'm walking a babe around school later. she's hot. my friends are all hot.
shit. and violin too.

is that all that you can give?

as you age, the unpleasant gets buried and heaps up just like the other piles of memories.
so i sit around hoping that the tide will turn.

i'm towning later. just 33 more days to go.

it's only the 4th day into february and i already know that i'm going to hate this month. say no to birthday, valentines and chinese new year. those days are hard to handle. i can see a few of you nodding to that.

maybe i should save up a little and give myself a treat to bali or somewhere cheap. i'm just toying around with that idea.

up on my agenda list:
1. sentosa luge and skyride
2. treetop walk
3. museum trip
4. babel
5. talk about melbourne get mentally prepared
5. anything comforting
6. anything comforting

i got sick of asking people out. i know why. so i decided to make a list and wait for them to ask me out instead. and then my list gets longer and this is how the cycle goes.

hm, did i mention that the professionals told me to learn to be passive. yes i know, it's weird.

i've yet to meet like-minded people.

sigh. give me a goose. mom's poking me to see someone new. but i feel more comfortable staying in my own bubble.

wanting waiting too much to let go

today just one of those typical days where you have absolutely nothing to look forward to.

i'll get to travel again like really soon. first stop, melbourne. next,西藏，苏州，上海. hopefully i can squeeze in another, may to tioman or thailand with my buddies. i just want to walk around the globe in my islanders, my bagpack and a DSLR.