i miss having people laugh at me for waking at brunch time, still eats breakfast and asks 'what are we having for lunch'. i miss having breakfast prepared for me every single morning. i miss having companion for lunches and dinners. i miss having 3 meals each day. i miss being pampered by my teenage cousin who carries everything for me, buys me tidbits with his own miserable savings, brings me ice cream, let me watch my favorite shows despite him being in the middle of his own. i miss watching tv on the couch with someone beside me. i miss how we are never short of people for mahjong at night. i miss having a family. i can't be so needy.