results' out. i dont know how i did it with so little effort but looks like i've done it. with the cap like mine, it's really quite easy to be saying 'hey, this is my best semester' at the end of every semester. theres really nothing to celebrate about, or maybe i should maybe i am just unaware that i did put in a lot of effort. or maybe the rest are just airheads.

am just glad that i finally understood myself. a potter once said, let the clay decide and become what it's meant to be and not what you want it to be. it's really not easy to agree with that. it's a fight with yourself, your 'face' problem and such. but less the struggle to be someone else, you learn to be comfortable in your own skin and the best at what you're meant to be. this must not be confused with giving up a dream. because you'll never know somehow some way or another, you're jolly well on a different path towards the same dream. there's a time for everything. be at the right place, at the right time, doing the right things. don't rush it. ok, i've just reminded myself of adam sandler's click.

there're a lot of ways you could choose to live the same life. i've seen so many people lived through theirs but i still don't know which is the best way.