if right in front of you there're three doors,
behind door one is your suitor who always tries to invite you over. occasionally he/she imposes himself/herself on you or you two are never quite on the same frequency (but apparently your suitor doesnt think so). you dont fancy him/her that much (maybe not yet), but he/she's there whenever you need someone to talk to nevertheless.

the second door is all the time locked. it's never open unless you knock. there lives someone you fancy. you know he/she is not that into you because he/she never leaves his/her space to discover or share your life. but if you knock, the door opens and the most beautiful things happen. and then door closes till the next time you knock.

the third door lives your old beau who still pops by your house once in awhile to make sure things are ok. you used to think he/she and you are the most perfect couple and you continued to live in this made believe after he/she left you because he/she thought that the feeling was no longer right. you took a year to leave you past behind.

so you wont open the first door because the person behind that door tries too hard?
and you will continue knocking on the second door because it makes you a prince/princess in a fairy tale however short lived?
you will never approach the last door because you were hurt before?

the interesting thing to note that you might be playing the roles of 4 persons at the same time (to different people of course).
hahaah so complicated.
*turns attention to my dinner


last paper tomorrow
and if my mom's fever doesnt subside tomorrow, they're going to put the knife on her already.

good night!