my academic life has just met with something extremely troubling yesterday. this is way beyond a test of my own integrity. now everyone thinks that i'm the silly person who have caused this stir but well in actual fact it really isnt me. nevermind i can be that silly person. one day, eventually, those 30 pairs of eyes will forget who this "silly" person is. will they ever (not judge me)? will they ever?

i feel sooo weighed down shielding the whole chain of strangers behind this conspiracy. honestly, do i really have to?




this isnt my week with all the stupid hiccups. the only comforting thing is that judging from my own track record, there couldnt possibly be anything out there that i cant handle.

oh thats it love,
forget those selfish ideas no one shares your load
oh thats it love,
pick your armor be independent all over again

days like these you just wish to have someone there who can walk beside you and assure you. i'm not looking for someone to solve the problems that i'm capable of solving them my own. it's just the companion and the comfort that i need.
most of you understand, dont you?