i'm so restless now im quite capable of breaking one whole box of pencils and shredding a rim of paper. and if i go for violin today, im quite sure i will flatten those dao-gehs or chew off those strings.

laugh out loud.

oh my godd.

so i proceed to text christopher
can i resume lesson next week oct too. i'm extremely restless today i dont know what has gotten to me. i'm so restless tt i'm close to smashing my violin. this cant get any more frustrating. :(

and i get an instantaneous
ok

for 7 years and counting, he cant be ever more understanding to my quirky ways. he gives me space, perhaps a little too much.

i'm 5 months from exam. dawn, probably only you will truely understand these similar-to-artist-block days!

hell, wake up!
can someone tell me it's really really all just in the mind?